So for the first time in 7 yrs I’m in an actual relationship. Not dating, not seeing each other, not casual… An actual relationship, with someone who actually gives a shit and loves every part of me, even the really fucked up parts. my best mate, who is very to the point and blunt and hasn’t really got a filter, msged him to warn him not to hurt me and basically threatened him if he did. I thought this would scare him away, so had a bit of a meltdown. And when he didn’t run for the hills and just held me reassuring me. I had another coz I thought I would send him running… He didn’t… he held me, kissed me and told me he wasn’t going anywhere and no matter how broken I think I am. He doesn’t think I’m broken, he thinks I’m perfect and beautiful and the best thing in his life! I’m scared ill mess him up, I’m scared ill end up pushing him away. I found my soul mate and even tho it’s early days, I want to marry him and spend the rest of my shitty messed up life with him because he makes my life less shitty and messed up! I love you my little gek! 💗💗💗